This was a slap in the face. While I’ve been thinking so much about my lot in life, that I can’t get a job, that I can’t find anyone special in my life, I get this message from a friend I’ve known for nearly 30 years. At one time we were very close. She wrote to say that she has stage four cancer.

And here I am wasting my time giving a shit over something as inconsequential as football.

I don’t know how to respond to her. I’m going to have to write back, but I don’t know what to say.

Sometimes I can be a real idiot.