I do feel numb.

With no job. So, no paycheck. A brand new mortgage. A flooded family room. A house that I can’t move into yet. The cost of this restoration and then… god knows what (like, why is all that mold there?That can’t be from the recent flood.) And with all of this, I have to start looking for a job, again. Especially with my recent three years of futility of a job search fresh in my mind, I’m not optimistic at all on the job front.

I feel numb and I don’t know when this feeling will end.